My parents are coming, and quite frankly, I’m scared shitless. It’s worse this time around than it was ever before. I’m pretty damn sure it’s going to be nonstop bickering over what’s being said and what has been said, and…I’m honestly not sure I can take the pressure if it all right now. Even now I’m just an emotional wreck about to burst at the seams, and I don’t know what to do anymore.

I’m not a strong or brave person, even now…especially now. I feel so vulnerable, and I -know- that it’s just going to keep coming at me when we’re out, when I visit…just a whole bombardment of pressure.

This is soooo not healthy for me. I feel like burying myself under my pillows and covers and never, ever coming out again.